One thing I would do differently #imustconfess
It’s again interesting timing for this prompt, something that I did not foresee when I first set this list of #imustconfess prompts a few months ago.
Who knew that Britain’s referendum on their European Union membership would lead to #Brexit last week?
Certainly many politicians, journalists and nearly half of the UK population didn’t see it coming. It seems there are many back in the UK right now who would happily go back and vote differently if they had the opportunity.
And for us here in Australia, we have our own poll coming up this weekend with the Federal election set for Saturday. Again the result is expected to be close – I just hope we can finally secure a government that will govern for all of us, not just for some of us.
But for me, this week also marks a year since I lost my father to cancer.
On Wednesday, to mark the first anniversary of his death, I’ll be heading out to Stockton Beach with my brother to spend some time at the place where we scattered Dad’s ashes. We both want to be close to him and to take the time to remember him and celebrate his life.
And on Saturday, on the first anniversary of his funeral, I’ll make my vote count before settling in to watch the election unfold. And I’ll have a few drinks in his honour too – he wouldn’t want it any other way. Actually, he probably would just have had a drink without watching – he never had much time for politicians…
Unsurprisingly, there are so many things I would do differently when it comes to my beloved Dad.
I would have urged him to go to the GP sooner to have everything checked out before the cancer took hold. I would have asked more questions and would have insisted on a PET scan earlier then we did. I would have pushed for earlier radiation and chemotherapy.
Of course all of these things would have helped him live a little longer. But there is one thing I would do above all other things if I had the chance to do one thing differently.
I would go back and spend much more time with him before he fell ill.
I would not have taken his continued presence in my life for granted. I would have visited him more. I would have listened with more care to his stories.
I would have taken the time to have soaked up his unique sense of humour. And the sound of his voice – the voice he lost in December 2014, the voice I haven’t heard in over 18 months now.
I would have spent more time watching him interact with my kids, instead of taking the opportunity to turn off and have a rest myself. I would have taken more photos so I had more memories to treasure.
I would have talked to him more and sought out his views on so many aspects of life. I would have found out more about his family and mine – my grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins.
I would have talked less about me and more about him. I would have offered my help more often. I would have been less self-absorbed.
It’s so easy to say all these things now, with the benefit of hindsight. But I know that I would give anything to just have one more conversation. One more hug. One more smile.
So yes, the one thing I would do differently now would be to spend all the time I could with my Dad x
What is the one thing you’d do differently?
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