I Must Confess…my mixed emotions about spring
I must confess that I usually greet spring with excitement and relief. Excitement that spring signals the start of the “fun” part of the year (yay for sun & imminent holidays!) and relief that the coldest days are behind us.
I don’t do cold very well.
This year, however, I’m not quite as excited to see spring. Relieved, yes, but excited? No.
This winter has been especially hard. It began with the passing of my Dad in June, just over two months ago now. I don’t think I’ll ever get over that. Winter was an especially bitter one after he left us – no amount of warmth could help with that.
Then I ruptured my anterior cruciate ligament (ACL) at the start of August and have been hobbling ever since. And then I turned 40 a few days later. Now, I’m not too hung up on the whole turning 40 thing but it really isn’t a birthday that most people greet with joy, is it?
All in all, it’s been a pretty bleak winter. So yes, there is a sense of relief in putting it all behind us.
Except, it’s not all behind us.
Spring starts off with my first Father’s Day without my Dad. I’m already getting teary thinking about it. Then in November, it’ll be Dad’s birthday. He would have turned 76. It’s not going to be an easy time for us.
Then on September 9 I’m scheduled for ACL reconstruction surgery which will see me spend the remainder of spring recovering and undertaking rehabilitation. In some respects I cannot wait for the operation so I can get on the road to recovery again. But then again it’s an operation and I must confess I’m not too keen on those at all.
So that is why I’m greeting spring with mixed feelings this year. I want to look forward to it but there are going to be elements that will be physically and emotionally hard to deal with.
Are you looking forward to spring? If so distract me with your plans and dreams for spring!
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