Things I Know about the end of 2014
I know that the end of 2014 cannot arrive quick enough. It has been a big, huge, pivotal year and just when I thought we could coast to the end, no, cancer comes and kicks us in the guts.
I know that I am trying to stay positive and keep myself busy but thoughts of my dad’s upcoming surgery and treatment do creep in and bring me down.
I know I am exhausted with all the “stuff” that needs to be done at the moment. All the school functions, preschool presentations, party days, shopping and gift giving.
I know I am grateful that I no longer work so I have the time to get everything sorted out.
I know all I really want to do is crawl somewhere and hibernate for a while, until it’s all over.
I know I’m going to miss my husband, my kids and my puppies next week while I’m in Sydney.
I know I can’t wait for them to join me next Friday.
I know I’m looking forward to having a few days in a lovely house in Coogee with them all. In walking distance to both the beach and the hospital. Why not try to make the best of a crappy situation?
I know I won’t be around here as much but I will try to keep you all updated with developments.
I know I am so thankful to have friends who care about me and who are checking up on me to make sure I’m still coping.
I know I am lucky to have the support of Nathan’s parents who are taking up the slack with the kids and the puppies so I can be with mum and dad.
I know I have a wonderful husband who is doing all he can to help me get through this week and beyond.
I know I love my parents with all my heart and I wish I could change this reality.
I know I’m going to desperately miss my dad’s voice.
I know I’m dreading the moment I have to tell the kids about what is going on and what it will mean for their pop.
I know I am lucky to have this space to vent and to have your ear for support.
I know I will feel better eventually. I know my natural positivity will come back.
I know there is always hope.