I Must Confess…Top 10 of me in 2014

It’s December so it’s fitting to begin looking back at the year that was. And there’s no better way than identifying the events, experiences and emotions that stood out from the rest in 2014.

I must confess that for me, 2014 was the most pivotal in my life so far. No question about it. I have a suspicion that 2015 will have even more in store but I do hope it is a little less dramatic and eventful than this year has been!

I’ve decided to share the top 10 of me – 10 events, experiences or emotions that have shaped my year and have changed my mindset, for good or bad. You are more than welcome to join in and link up your own too.

Top ten of me

1. Travelling: Our trip to New Zealand with the kids in January was a real turning point for us as a family. Taking that leap and pushing through the fear of travelling overseas with our ASD kids showed just how strong we are. We discovered a love of being together. We re-discovered talking to each other and sharing meals and turning off the world. The kids realised that being away from home and visiting another country isn’t all bad! It was a real revelation for us.

2. Stress: Unfortunately one of the defining feelings of 2014 for me has been stress. In the early part of the year I was stressed to the hilt – I was managing a team at work, finalising a project and trying to keep on top of all the appointments and needs of the kids. Even after leaving work I am still stressed, trying to make a go at writing, anxious that I don’t have the mindset to work from home, worried that I’m going to mess up this golden opportunity to succeed. Stressing about stress – I’m truly in need of help…

3. Brain Meltdown: This changed everything – in fact it has been the single most life-changing event of my life. After experiencing stroke like symptoms due to stress I suddenly knew that I could not go on living as I had been anymore. It messes with your head to know that you have somehow induced stroke-like symptoms just by worrying and trying to do it all yourself. Even now I still worry (counterproductive, I know!) that it will happen again.

4. Life Readjustment: Most of the year since has been spent readjusting and learning to accept my new reality. When I finally headed back to work after my brain meltdown I knew I could no longer be an effective manager and that I could no longer consistently work 5 days a week. So I had to readjust how I worked, what I did and what I defined as success/failure. I had to learn to accept that I can’t do it all and that’s okay. That’s a lesson I’m still learning 8 months on.

5. Cub Scouts: Matilda began cub scouts this year and it’s been SO good for her. She has grown in confidence, independence and resilience. The leaders and other scouts have been so welcoming and supportive and understanding. She has attended her first ever overnight camp and lots of mini-excursions along the way. It’s been wonderful to see her truly blossom as an inquisitive, compassionate and enthusiastic member of a group. Seeing her shine and find her place has been a real highlight this year.

6. Cancer: The year has ended in a pretty crap way with news that my beloved Dad has cancer. Throat cancer to be exact. He’s going to lose his ability to speak because of it and I’m absolutely gutted. I just want to soak up listening to his voice (as hoarse as it is now) just because he’ll never sound like “him” again. I’m praying that the surgery will be the only treatment he needs but I’ll be there for him and for mum, whatever happens. Suffice to say it’s not exactly going to be a merry xmas this year. Geez cancer is a complete bitch…

7. Problogger: Going to ProBlogger with Nathan was a definite highlight of the year. I enjoyed spending some time alone with him and reconnecting as a couple. I also soaked up all the bloggy wisdom being imparted and came away with big dreams. Most importantly, it was at ProBlogger where I made the decision to accept an offer of redundancy and embrace the unknown.

8. Redundancy: Back at the start of 2014 I would have never dreamed of applying for a redundancy, let alone accepting one. However in the midst of readjustment after my brain meltdown it felt like the right thing to do. Nearly 3 months on, I still don’t regret it. I think I am finally ready to try something new and discover what it actually is that I want to do for the rest of my life – or for the next few years, anyway.

9. Working from home: This has been a big readjustment for me and I’m still working through it. I truly did not expect that working from home would be this challenging. I’m struggling with time management, organisation and focus. Things that I also had issues with in my previous job, so no real surprise there. But I want this to work and I will keep going until I get it right. This is an amazing opportunity – I do not want to squander it!

10. Puppies: After waiting years and years and years, I finally have my beloved puppies. They keep me company through the day and are full of mischief and fun. They can be challenging and demanding but they are adorable and so worth it! It’s impossible to resist their gorgeous pugginess…

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Go on, just try to resist Evie’s big brown puppy eyes…

What are your top 10 moments from 2014? Feel free to share and join in with all our other confessors!

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22 Responses

  1. Once again, I’m so sorry to hear about your dad. I hope his surgery goes well and no further treatment is needed.
    Raych aka Mystery Case recently posted..12 Days of GIVEAWAYS – Day 8 – Take Me Away

  2. Once again, I’m so sorry to hear about your dad. I hope his surgery goes well and no further treatment is needed. Will be thinking of you and your family.
    Raych aka Mystery Case recently posted..12 Days of GIVEAWAYS – Day 8 – Take Me Away

  3. I loved doing this prompt. It was really good to trawl the pictures and relive some of the memories. Thank you.
    Lydia C. Lee recently posted..Fruits of Summer

  4. Zita says:

    This year has been quite similar for me in that 2014 has been a bit pivotal for me as well.
    So sorry to hear about your Dad. Those pugs are so damn cute! and it was lovely to meet you IRL at ProBlogger!
    Look forward to reading what 2015 has in store for you.
    Zita recently posted..to share my secret..

  5. I hope everything turns out as best as possible for your dad. I’m so jealous of your puppies! They’re so cute.
    Toni @ Finding Myself Young recently posted..10 things that happened in 2014

  6. What a year Kirst, mine has been thankfully quite boring in comparison. So you have so much going on that I hope you get a bit of a break over the silly season. Working from home is extremely challenging and while it does have some great benefits, there’s plenty of down sides. I’m gutted for you and your dad, such a cruel disease, thinking of you. And meeting you at PB was a highlight of the conference, you are exactly as you appear in your writing, a feat that isn’t easy to achieve. Just keep swimming and great things will happen for you I bet xx
    Emily @ Have A Laugh On Me recently posted..How to pick your battles with kids – Laugh Link.

  7. Gosh what a year of ups and downs for you this year. I hope you get to have a bit of a break over the holidays and can relax a little. I’m so sorry to hear about your Dad – that must be incredibly hard for you and your family. xxx
    Lucy @ Bake Play Smile recently posted..Oreo Truffles

  8. You have certainly had a MASSIVE year! 2012 was like that for me – 2 years on and life is better than ever. You’ll get the hang of the working from home thing, I promise! 🙂
    Janet @ Middle Aged Mama recently posted..The 12 Yays of Christmas

  9. What a year you have had, stay safe xxxx
    Rae Hilhorst recently posted..Christmas Decorating

  10. What a huge year! I need to sit and evaluate mine. That puppy is adorable!! I have experienced stress this year too. I need to get better at managing it. I’m sorry to hear about your Dad. I hope his surgery goes well. We had a scare with my dad about a year ago – it’s awful I know. I’m hoping I can list travel in my 2015 wrap up. A few little trips away this year but nowhere mega-exciting! Min x
    Min@WriteoftheMiddle recently posted..Mindful Monday: The Attitude of Patience

  11. You HAVE had a big year. It has been a privilege to be involved in all these events through your blog. I wanted to write something ispiring or sentimental and give comfort, but I am seriously distracted by your puppy! So so cute. She has taken all my important thoughts away. This is the reason you no longer get anything done during the day. xS
    Sarah from Creating Contentment recently posted..Christmas tree forest Advent calendar

  12. Paula J says:

    What a year you’ve had! Hugs to you and wishing you a less stressful 2015.
    I’ve had a pretty difficult year as well including a new baby, nasty divorce and a move.
    Now I can look forward to moving on and making a better life for myself and my kids.
    Paula J recently posted..NO RULES Weekend Blog Party #114!

  13. Cosette says:

    It sounds like a harrowing year and also full of growth. I hope 2015 is joyful for you and your family. P.S. I’m envious that you went to ProBlogger!
    Cosette recently posted..Christmas in Melbourne

  14. Tegan says:

    I hope that your Dads surgery goes well and that he doesn’t need further treatment. 2014 has definitely thrown you some curveballs, so I hope that things settle down for you all next year.
    Tegan recently posted..The stuff that happened.

  15. Me says:

    I’m so sorry to hear about your Dad – cancer sucks !!!! My Dad was diagnosed with cancer for the third time last week and is waiting to hear when he can have a PET scan to find out exactly how far it has spread – we are hoping it hasn’t but we really don’t know.
    Sending heaps of hugs your way xox
    Me recently posted..I Can See The Improvement

  16. Alicia says:

    You have had an eventful year. I hope the future holds only good things for you and your family x
    Alicia recently posted..DIY family photo christmas greeting cards

  17. Oh lovely, I’m so sorry I didn’t join in as this is a great topic which I will still do a post about. As you can see with my last post, I really need to slow down. You have certainly had a huge year and no wonder you are stressed and exhausted. I am so sorry to hear about your Dad but do remember to look after you too. Working from home at the beginning can be difficult but I have found that getting myself into a routine, writing out a to-do list at the beginning of each day and prioritising the tasks really help. I also have a rule that just because I’m home doesn’t mean I’m available for coffees or to clean the house or make dinner. Yes I might stop for 10 minutes to put something on for dinner, but I don’t spend 2 hours baking for the rest of the week. Best wishes for 2015 and Merry Christmas.
    Eva @ The Multitasking Mummy recently posted..Slowing Down…Taking Stock

  18. Maxabella says:

    I’m gutted to hear about your Dad, that’s a real kicker. I hope he is doing ok. Sigh.

    Well, it wasn’t a great year was it? But there are some huge lessons here and some gold amongst all the silt. Next year will be the year you define all this newness and find the balm to soothe your stressy ways. Everything will be okay and you’ll get there if you remain your open, honest, striving self, promise. x

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