I Must Confess…swimsuits don’t do much for me

Last weekend our family did something pretty out of the ordinary for us – we went to the local public swimming pool for a swim. The kids were beside themselves with excitement. Me, not so much.

Despite enjoying a swim from time to time, the whole act of getting ready to swim then swimming then getting dry and dressed again usually represents way too much work for the short time of actual “swimming” you get out of it. Being a family of fair skinned people, together with a child with albinism, we are not destined to spend hours in the water or in the sun or anywhere outside really, so the effort to get ready for a swim usually outweighs the benefits of the actual swim itself.

And then there’s the swimsuit issue…

Swimsuits - the low-down

I must confess, I’ve never owned a bikini. No, I lie. I believe there is photographic evidence of me in a orange crocheted bikini circa 1977, although I do not have said photographic evidence in my possession. But since that summer in our toddler padding pool in our backyard, a bikini has never entered my house.

I have always been self conscious about my body. I was an overweight child and even though I am a normal weight today, I will always view my body through the lens of that unhappy, chubby girl. That somewhat warped body view has meant that I’m loathe, even to this day, to show much of my body out in public. And it has, obviously, shaped my approach to purchasing swimwear over the years.

I currently own a single piece of swimwear. It’s a black one piece costume from Target in a textured sort of material. From memory it wasn’t a cheap purchase but fresh out of having children, I just wanted a one piece swimsuit that fit me and covered up as much of my body as possible. And it has done the job.

It has survived years in chlorinated water at indoor swimming centres and the occasional adventure outside too. It is getting a little thin and faded now but, even so, I have no plans to buy a new costume. You see no one ever sees it anyway – I wear a t-shirt and shorts on top – so it can truly doesn’t matter how tattered or worn or see-through it gets.

I like to tell people I wear multiple layers when swimming to protect my fair, freckled and very moley skin from the sun. That’s only partly true.

I must confess I mainly wear multiple layers as I’m still, in some ways, that chubby little girl, desperately trying to protect myself and make the teasing stop.

What about you – do you embrace summer and swimming and swimsuits? Or do you have a problematic relationship with them like I do?

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22 Responses

  1. The closer we get to summer the more I’m dreading it. I’m so completely out of shape and still not able to exercise. I have managed to find a rather flatter swimsuit but I can’t see me brave enough to wear it in public. I might need to go into hibernation mode or move to a cooler climate.
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    • Kirsty says:

      I completely understand Raych. I never go out with just my swimmers on either. Hoping you do get the opportunity to wear it – a flattering swimsuit is very hard to find!

  2. I didn’t do the swimsuits (I’ve gone from bikini to one piece post kids, due to the weird saggy stomach) but I will try to get myself set for next week….
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    • Kirsty says:

      Yes, what’s with the stomach? I have a funny shelf where my c-section scar is – the skin below is tighter than the skin above. VERY attractive…not!!!

  3. Zita says:

    No swimsuit confessions for me today, have linked up off topic.
    I do find it hard to buy swimwear, like most full body things I find a one piece hard to get big enough to fit my thighs and butt but small enough to fit my boobs! So I usually end up with a 2 piece which, at the moment, I am ok with…I might have to give up swimming all together when I am not!
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    • Kirsty says:

      I think there are great two pieces out there, particularly in tankinis. The one piece I have is quite flattering which helps but I’m not looking forward to the day that I will inevitably have to go out and buy a new one…

  4. So I went to a shop where I get bras for big girls and the woman fitted me with a very elegant one piece which usually makes me look WEIRD! Slimming even. I used to wear 2 piece but it covers the muffin – I say embrace it if you can – you are perfect the way you are and you want your kids to know that too! (not that I’m telling you off or anything) xx
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    • Kirsty says:

      Thanks for the non-telling off Em 🙂 The last thing I want is for the kids to grow up with similar issues to me – very important and relevant point there x

  5. Vanessa says:

    I just throw on whatever. I will never look fashionable swimming and I’m sure bits hang here & there, but nothing will stop me from getting on a water slide!!
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  6. Tegan says:

    I wear swimmers. Always have, always will. I wear shorts but I don’t wear a shirt usually. If I do, it’s a light one, but I find it just gets in the way.
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    • Kirsty says:

      I have to say I’ve gotten used to shirts over the years – and my sunburn has been far less for having protection on my back and shoulders!

  7. My swimwear of choice is a tankini – covers like a one piece but more flattering on my apple shaped figure. I like to wear boardies or a sarong over the top though when I’m not actually in the water.
    Janet @ Middle Aged Mama recently posted..Nudies at the Beach!

    • Kirsty says:

      I’ll have to check out tankinis again. And get a sarong too – sounds a more fashionable option than my current choice of swimsuit covering 🙂

  8. I used to only own bikini’s before I had Hayley. I haven’t worn one since. I’ve always been self conscious but its gone to a whole new level now. I now own a black one piece from Target too and I cant tell you how depressing it was shopping for togs post baby. I used to be a size 8 and now I’m a size 12 in most brands. If I didn’t have such horrible stretch marks from pupp rash then I could probably convince myself to wear a bikini again eventually, but I highly doubt its going to happen.
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  9. I bought new bathers last year and have worn them once, they might get an outing this year but I doubt it x

    • Kirsty says:

      I hope they do Rae! While swimming can seem like a hassle, I always love it when I’m in the water – there is peace in the sensation of floating x

  10. I’m aiming to let go of my hesitations around my body. I want to teach my children differently. So, though I don’t feel great about it, I wear swimmers regularly. Fake it till you make it.

  11. Suzy Mac says:

    Kirsty, have I got a swimsuit site for you!


    She makes swimsuit babydoll sundresses, skorts, tankinis with tank tops you could put over jeans and wear out in the evening!

    And the prices range from $20 to $60! I have a black swim skirt which is very thigh flattering and a ruffle tank-top – plus a babydoll swim dress. I have never found anything as flattering or cheap anywhere.

    so order a new cozzie on line and you get out there and flaunt it girl :0)
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