I Must Confess…some home truths
First off, thanks so much to the awesome Tegan for taking the reins at very short notice last week. As you probably all know by now I had a health scare which, to be honest, scared me witless. Still no answers as yet but I’m off to the GP again for another checkup today and will hopefully know a little more by the end of the week.
So a big thanks again to Tegan for hosting and for all of you for still supporting the linkup either by linking or commenting. I love how genuinely supportive we all are of each other – have I told you lately just how rather fabulous you all are?
Now, onto the confessing. This week is all very random and open as we are going without a promp (gasp!). I’m looking forward to seeing what’s linked up without any sort of prompt to write to. For me, it’s time for another round of mini-confessions as I have had a LOT on my mind over the last few weeks.
Confession #1 – I have a new blog theme!
Welcome to the new (and hopefully improved!) My Home Truths. I’m really happy with the site and I hope it’s not long until you all feel comfortable here again. I know, after having a more streamlined site for so long that it has taken me some time to get used to a more vibrant and visually “there” site. So have a snoop around and let me know if you experience any problems while you are here – seriously I would love some feedback.
BTW, don’t forget to grab my new buttons. Feel free to add them to your side bar, blog roll, wherever you like really….
Confession #2 – I now have a media kit
Yep. I have been blogging for over three years yet I had never taken the time to put together a proper media kit. I never even had an advertising or PR button. Bad blogger. My media kit still needs polishing but at least all the details are in the one place now so I can be a little more proactive when it comes to working with brands. It will also come in very handy with my next confession…
Confession #3 – I’m off to the Problogger Event in August!
Nathan and I both secured a ticket and are heading to the GC at the end of August! I’m interested in finding ways to assist in achieving a better work/life balance (especially in light of my health scare) and if I can cut back from working in the office by supplementing my income from the blog then, believe me, I am keen to canvass all options. I’m also looking forward to learning lots and meeting some of my fave bloggers while I’m there!
Confession #4 – I’m not a good patient
I have to admit I’m not good at doing nothing. I was supposed to rest up last week and I found it very hard to let go. The first few days I was exhausted by my experience so it wasn’t that hard or at all unpleasant to sit down and catch up on reading and on my reality TV watching. But as the week went on I grew dissatisfied with doing nothing and found it hard to not look around the house and do a little here and there. I must confess being busy helps distract my mind which leads us to my last confession…
Confession #5 – I’m scared
Nathan has commented a few times in the last week that I seem blase about what has happened, especially when talking to others about what has been going on. He also thinks I’m not taking things seriously which is obviously not helped by my inability to just let go and do nothing.
To be honest, I can’t think about much else. How can I?
It might have been a migraine but it could have been a seizure. I could have had a stroke. I might have MS.
Wouldn’t some of those options scare anyone?
It’s been more than a week and I still don’t know what went wrong. Until I know I can’t fully process what occurred. Until I know, I can’t enter into conversations with others about it all – I don’t know how serious or not things are. Much easier to fob things off or try to make light of the situation, until I know for sure.
Until I know, I can’t resume my life as it was. Right now I don’t have the mental capacity to accept and manage the normal stresses of my life. I can’t even bear the thought of returning to work and I’m dreading being cleared to drive again. While I hate being powerless to help Nathan out and I don’t like the thought of accepting help from others, I’m terrified at having to take everything back on again. What if it happens again?
So yes, I must confess that I’m scared right now.
With that out there, I am sorely in need of distraction – so, help me out and link up your confession so we can all start off the week right!
– I Must Confess is a link up that runs every Monday and remains live for the whole week.
– You can link up something old or new, we’re not fussy around here.
– Feel free to go with the prompt for the week or add your own confession, whatever suits.
– Please go forth and share the comment love – it is bloggy crack after all!
– We’re always open to suggestions for the weekly prompt!
Next week’s prompt – share your most memorable hospital/medical experiences.
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