Releasing my inner child

I’m too serious for my own good most of the time.

I’m usually focused on what I HAVE to do. Always thinking about the next thing on my to-do list. Never having quite enough time to just live in the moment being so consumed by what’s coming next.

I realised the other day that I have forgotten how to have fun. I don’t laugh as much anymore. ย Nowadays I rarely stop and daydream. And I don’t know what to do with myself on those rare occasions I have time to myself.

More often than not I find myself making excuses to the kids for not playing with them. Somehow I’m not able to still myself enough to just take five minutes to stop worrying and enjoy them.

That’s not how things should be.

On the weekend I started a week’s leave and made the decision to approach my life differently. I made the choice to enjoy rather than endure.

I started by spending more time with my kids and concentrating on them, rather than on everything else I have to do. It was fun to walk the tightrope with Delilah, play basketball and soccer with Matilda and watch silly TV shows with Gilbert.

I actually had a lot of fun.

We went to the park and I enjoyed the walk there and the cool breeze on my face and the sound of my kids’ laughter.

For the first time in a long time I felt the urge to join in. I resisted the urge to climb the climbing wall (more due to hesitation about my ability than anything else) but I succumbed to the overwhelming urge to sit on the swing and soar.


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I felt free and happy. I found myself swinging higher so I could capture that intoxicating feeling of excitement in my stomach. I smiled and giggled as I moved with the repetitive motion of gravity.

Back and forth.

The girls thought it was great fun to see Mum on the swing. And I relished my happiness and theirs.

Finally I had rediscovered the art of having fun through releasing my inner child.

Have you felt the same? If so, what helped you to find yourself again?

And, what’s your playground activity of choice? Mine will always be the swing…



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44 Responses

  1. I’m a big fan of fun – infact most of the scholl hol activities are because I want to do them, not the kids. They just come along too. Tho today we are off to EB Games expo – guessing I won’t have much fun at all!
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  2. victoria says:

    i second the swinging! and don’t forget to sing the song!

  3. stephanie says:

    another vote for the swing here. Lovely that you can spend more dedicated time with your kids.
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  4. It’s so easy to fall into that trap – you’re not the only one. Good on your for taking a step back and having some fun xxx

  5. Hi Kirsty, another lovely honest post. It’s so easy to fall into adult world, and just “look after” our kids, rather than play with them. I’m guilty of that, too. Our kids do have to learn to play on their own, but we also have to make the time to join in their worlds. These are the memories our children will have of us… Personally, I’m a big fan of the swing, too! But, I’m a bit of a lightweight now and if I go too high I get sick…what’s with that?! Have a lovely weekend xo

  6. Oh, I love the swing too. I had a swing recently for the first time in a long time and I felt just like that – like I had released my inner child.I like the line you wrote ‘enjoy rather than endure’ – a wonderful reminder for all us busy mums ๐Ÿ™‚
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  7. I am a fan if the swing. But not the saucer swing. Have you been in that? It spins round in circles while soaring in the sky and for my mummy tummy it was a little too crazy. Just the ol’ fashion tyre swing suits me. Here’s to many more fun days for us all xxx

  8. I am a huge fan of the swing. But not the saucer swing. Have you been in that? It spins round in circles while soaring in the sky and for my mummy tummy it was a little too crazy. Just the olโ€™ fashion tyre swing suits me. Hereโ€™s to many more fun days for us all xxx
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    • Kirsty says:

      I think the saucer swing would be too much for me as well. Trampolines give me headaches so I can only imagine what a swing like that would do to me!

  9. Kirsty this is soooo true. Appreciate these times while you still have them. They grow up so quickly and before you know it they don’t want anything to do with you on the school holidays ๐Ÿ™‚
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  10. Rhianna says:

    I dearly love the swing as well. Though it is hard to go past a good slide. Mind you good slides big enough for adults without a tight bottom squeeze can be hard to find.

    Thanks so much for sharing what you know and I am so glad you found your inner child. Also that choice about enjoy or endure, love it!
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  11. Yep, love the swing. This is a really nice post, Kirsty. Thanks for reminding me to stop and smell the roses. I think it is really important to make a big effort to just hang with the kids and do whatever they want to do occasionally. This time won’t last forever.
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  12. Pip says:

    It’s incredible how we seem to have forgotten to have fun – or indeed live in the moment like kids find so easy. The times I lose myself in her play I find are the times my worry frown disappears – makes such a difference to enjoy these times, such a difference to my spirits anyway. Good on you – sounds like the week break was enlightening.
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    • Kirsty says:

      It’s funny how freeing it feels to just let go but we find it so hard to take that first step and let go in the first place. Being an adult can be so hard sometimes…;)

  13. Nick and I have spent a few mornings at different beaches these holidays and it has been so wonderful. To not be sitting at home in front of screens, to not think about all the chores, to just enjoy the sunshine, fresh air, and making memories. It’s been awesome. And I can’t wait until the next school holidays to do more of it. And to try and sneak some of it in throughout the school term, too! We’re too caught up in technology these days. I often wonder if we’d be better off without it!
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    • Kirsty says:

      That sounds wonderful Aroha. We are ruled by technology here and are consciously trying to limit that now and push everyone outside. Not easy when that’s not our natural state but it is really enjoyable once you get out and make that effort!

  14. Mumabulous says:

    No I havent forgotten how to have fun – its just a shame that fun involves inevitably involves alcohol ๐Ÿ˜‰
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    • Kirsty says:

      My sort of fun sometimes runs in that direction too but as my kids are all well under legal drinking age I had to find another sort of fun to share with my kids ๐Ÿ˜‰

  15. I loved the roundabout as a kid, that was my favourite. Now I enjoy racing the kids up the climbing nets and stuff. That’s awesome.
    Glad you’re finding a way to relax and be carefree again xx
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    • Kirsty says:

      I forgot about the roundabout but they were awesome when I was young. Too bad you don’t see them around much anymore – they were ace!

  16. Emily says:

    My idea of fun with the kids is whatever they’re enjoying. And the occasional chocolatey treat (with portion size dictated by humanoid size, of course! MORE FOR MUM!).

    I can’t do the swing anymore. I get vertigo almost instantly. I’m a pathetic old person already.
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    • Kirsty says:

      I can do the swing but jumping on the trampoline literally does my head in – I always come off with the mother of headaches!

  17. We really do need to take the time to be in the present. I find myself always saying, yes I can play when I finish….
    I catch myself and feel very mean.
    I’m glad you had fun and remembered what is important.
    Take Charge Now recently posted..Sickness or Sensational?

    • Kirsty says:

      I’m not always successful at it but I am trying. I feel mean too when I say “just a minute” or “not now” and I really want to change that response – my kids deserve better from me.

  18. I’m known for doing silly childlike things (and embarrassing my teenagers LOL) – like swings, and jumping on trampolines, making our teddies talk, and stuff like that. My inner child is alive and well!!!!
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  19. I have to say I’m always a big kid but what holds me back is the stress of work and knowing that when I have free time I should be working to meet my deadlines so I’m not living in the now, I’m playing but not really.
    SUPER proud of you for making the change lovely ๐Ÿ™‚
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    • Kirsty says:

      Completely understand this Em – I at least can leave my work at work but there’s always housework and other things that claim my time at home. Now if I could perfect cloning I’d be all set… ๐Ÿ˜‰

  20. ann says:

    Somedays you just have to be a kid again. Love this post it is so very true. The world would be a better place if everyone relaxed a little.
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  21. JackieK_ says:

    Definitely the swing! I also love dancing with my kids, singing to songs on the radio, telling jokes to each other (though you’re limited to bad knock-knocks when they’re 7), and watching cartoons. One of the good things about kids is they prompt exactly the kind of reminder you are talking about. And they force you to live in the moment, at least sometimes!
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  22. Grace says:

    I noticed that I had lost my ability to laugh and have fun. Especially last year. But I’m trying to make a conscious effort to change that. And it’s not just nice for me but pleasant for everyone. Laughing is fantastic for the soul. I’m going to try and not forget that.
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  23. Oh I love this! We sound very similar – I never “have fun” anymore. I need to sit on a swing and soar ๐Ÿ™‚

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