Releasing my inner child
I’m too serious for my own good most of the time.
I’m usually focused on what I HAVE to do. Always thinking about the next thing on my to-do list. Never having quite enough time to just live in the moment being so consumed by what’s coming next.
I realised the other day that I have forgotten how to have fun. I don’t laugh as much anymore. Nowadays I rarely stop and daydream. And I don’t know what to do with myself on those rare occasions I have time to myself.
More often than not I find myself making excuses to the kids for not playing with them. Somehow I’m not able to still myself enough to just take five minutes to stop worrying and enjoy them.
That’s not how things should be.
On the weekend I started a week’s leave and made the decision to approach my life differently. I made the choice to enjoy rather than endure.
I started by spending more time with my kids and concentrating on them, rather than on everything else I have to do. It was fun to walk the tightrope with Delilah, play basketball and soccer with Matilda and watch silly TV shows with Gilbert.
I actually had a lot of fun.
We went to the park and I enjoyed the walk there and the cool breeze on my face and the sound of my kids’ laughter.
For the first time in a long time I felt the urge to join in. I resisted the urge to climb the climbing wall (more due to hesitation about my ability than anything else) but I succumbed to the overwhelming urge to sit on the swing and soar.
I felt free and happy. I found myself swinging higher so I could capture that intoxicating feeling of excitement in my stomach. I smiled and giggled as I moved with the repetitive motion of gravity.
Back and forth.
The girls thought it was great fun to see Mum on the swing. And I relished my happiness and theirs.
Finally I had rediscovered the art of having fun through releasing my inner child.
Have you felt the same? If so, what helped you to find yourself again?
And, what’s your playground activity of choice? Mine will always be the swing…
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