I Must Confess…My Unloved Youth

Hello again my friends! It’s time for more secrets, confessions and revelations as part of the weekly I Must Confess linkup.

Now I must confess that I cannot really write to the prompt that I set last week about sharing stories of young love. It’s not that I am reluctant to share my first loves, it’s more that I don’t have any to share.

I must confess I had a very unloved youth.

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Throughout school I never ‘went out’ with anyone. No-one ever expressed any attraction or interest in me and I never had the gumption to let any of my crushes know how I felt.

It didn’t help that I wasn’t traditionally pretty, flushed easily, carried a little extra weight, was of a nerdy, unconfident disposition and suffered from terrible cystic acne.

Given that someone recently said that I reminded them of Marilyn Monroe (yes I was more than a little chuffed by that comparison!) it might surprise you to learn that I wasn’t much of a catch at all back then… 😉

I spent most of my teenage years secretly yearning for romance – reading romance novels, daydreaming about receiving an amazing makeover that would make me the envy of all and, above all, hoping for someone to see me for who I was.

Alas my teenage dreams never did come true so I hid my disappointment and decided instead to focus my energy on study rather than romance. I did this so successfully for quite a few years, that even my father was concerned about my lack of beaux and asked about my sexuality…true story…

I eventually grew into my own skin and found the confidence to eventually go out on a few dates to see what all the fuss was about. I have to admit I never relished the awkwardness and insecurity of the dating game and I never felt comfortable being a part of it.

As a result I didn’t enter into my one and only real relationship until the ripe old age of 23. I like to think I wasn’t going to waste my time on pretenders and instead waited for “the one” to show up.

After all my waiting, thank goodness Nathan had the good sense to show up AND stick around!

Do you have tales of young love to share or were you a perennial wallflower like me? Or do you have something else to get off your chest?

You know what to do – share, comment and support the community of over-sharers here at I Must Confess!

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13 Responses

  1. Mystery Case says:

    Well I dated far too many wrong men before Mr C came along but it just meant when he did come along things progressed rather quickly.

    My funniest post actually was an I must confess one where I shared the fact my sister married my first ‘real’ boyfriend. So I may need to write something funny between now and then.
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  2. Mumabulous says:

    I like to say that variety is a Spice Girl and that describes my 20s I(and early 30s for that matter). I am sure I would have done much better had I focused on my studies but as I studied economic no one can blame me for being distracted by the crumpet.
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  3. I think it’s beautiful that Nathan was your first and is your only love. So romantic!
    I think I was 12 when I had my first “boyfriend” but I wouldn’t kiss him and it didn’t last long. He was 15(??) and my friend’s brother. He was SO cute, and a surfer! Then I had a couple of boyfriends through high school, including the first boy I said “I love you” to. He was cute, but going nowhere with his life. He bought me a ring that said “I(heart)U” and when I broke up with him he was devastated. Ahhhh young love. I remember “Boys of Summer” was playing in his car when I broke up with him, so that song always makes me think of him. I haven’t blogged about this today, but have enjoyed this little walk down memory lane in my comment! 😉
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  4. Sounds like you found exactly the right love at exactly the right time 🙂 I was an awkward teenager too, more tomboy than prize catch, and then in my later teens I became somewhat promiscuous as a way of salving my non-existent self esteem. But like you, the right man came along at exactly the right time (albeit in a somewhat unorthodox way!) and that’s the story I’m linking up today 🙂
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  5. Great prompt this week – I decided to share about the ones that (thank goodness!) did get away!
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  6. Rhianna says:

    Sounds to me like you saved yourself a whole lot of heartache. So glad you found true love. Sending you both lost of fairy wishes and butterfly kisses
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  7. Sarah says:

    Oh Kirsty – apart from the acne (I just had normal pimples) you’ve described me!

    Thank you for confessing 🙂
    Sarah recently posted..If This Ain’t Love

  8. Me says:

    I had a couple of young loves ! None of them really worth writing about. I did go out with one guy for a while and then when we broke up I went out with his older brother for a while as well !!!
    I didn’t go out with anyone for too long as I met A just before I was 21 and we were married just after I turned 22.
    There is something to be said for the one and only.
    Have the best day !
    Me
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  9. Ness says:

    I never had any boyfriends in my teens either. I had one boyfriend at around 20 who was a complete wanker. After that a few dates but all the guys I dated always seemed to be looking over their shoulder for someone better. I was the sort of ‘she’ll do until I meet someone better’ girl. Sigh. I’ve been with Mick since 22 and married at 24 so I posted about meeting him.

    So, yeah, you’re certainly not the only one who had an unloved youth! xo
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  10. Well I was at an all-girls high school to my last year for senior years so kinda made it hard to meet and go out. So I had a BF at 16 – last year of high school – it was love, I thought he was the one – but oh how little we knew back then. I have kissed MANY toads but finally got my prince at 26 – wish I’d meet him earlier 🙂
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  11. Tegan says:

    I only had one *love* at highschool and he was a bit of an arsehole. So nice that Nathan is your first love, it’s a little bit cute.
    Tegan recently posted..First love…or not

  12. I knew most of that. I was there. But your description also describes me for most of my formative years too – just desperate to find a girl crazy enough to be my girlfriend. It was tough. The high school years before we studied together were the most lovelorn years I ever spent.

    Still, where you channelled your energies into study as opposed to chasing the opposite sex, I played guitar instead. As a result, my musical skills got better, my homework never got done and I still couldn’t find a girl. Go figure…
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