Yeah, I’m Still Alive…
Hey there! Yes it’s been a while between posts. Real life has a painful habit of just getting in the way sometimes, doesn’t it? 😉
I’ve enjoyed the last week off work but there hasn’t been a lot of time to rest. I think I need another week off to recover – sad, but true. I am hoping that work is not quite as stressful when I return as it has been a huge source of stress and anxiety for me lately. Fingers crossed things are a little easier when I return on Tuesday.
So why was my week off so huge? First off, there was the school excursion to Taronga Zoo earlier in the week. There will be a post or two, I promise, but for now here are some teaser photos to keep you going:
Gilbert’s birthday has finally been and gone although I am sure that he would have dragged it out for even longer if he could have. First there was his party last weekend, followed up with his actual birthday on Thursday. I still can’t believe that he’s 9, that just completely blows me away…
Then there were the birthday preparations which were nearly as taxing as the party preparations! I ended up baking and decorating a gluten free cake for the family plus 36 cupcakes for Gilbert’s class as well. Exhausting. But worth it.
Did I mention the Easter hat making? Nathan came up with the idea of using cardboard to make hat bands so as to not damage his funky hats. Then we glued whatever was remotely Easterish – little chickens, cotton wool, letters and sparkles (there ALWAYS has to be sparkles ;))
To top the week off I had a quick catch-up with a dear friend (something I need to do more of) and then finished off with a trip to a lighting and blinds store to get some quotes for the new house. That whole process (the house build) needs a post on it’s own. Suffice to say, things have been slow, disappointing and stressful but we’re hoping to get things moving in the right direction very soon.
Most of the bedroom windows are going to look like these with some practical neutral looking roller blinds
I’m thinking of a row of these over my kitchen island – image source
And these fans will be throughout the house – BTW I love the look of this room – image source
I am now attempting to get some rest over the Easter long weekend so I can return to real life next week with some degree of calm and composure. You have probably got the idea that I have been busy and stressed and completely overwhelmed lately. Given the current state of my mind I have finally made the decision to see my GP to get some help. I’m starting to see some worrying signs as set out in this post and, deep down, I know I should not be feeling quite this overwhelmed all of the time.
I want to be happy and healthy and excited to be alive. I want to be there, really there, for my kids. I want to be a supportive and loving wife. I want to look forward to things, instead of dreading every day. I want to relish and savour every moment, instead of putting my head down against the storm and just surviving.
Basically I want to be me, not this shadow of me that I have become.
I may have to take a bit of a blogging break soon, for my own sanity, but I’ll see where I’m placed after I see the GP. Blogging is always a little bit of a two-edged sword for me. On the one hand I need the outlet to get my words and feelings out there, but on the other hand it can sometimes feel like another obligation that needs to be fulfilled…it’s never easy, is it? I will certainly let you know if I do end up being absent for a little while.
In the meantime I’m scheduling some posts for the blog for the coming week. Tomorrow I will be continuing on my alphabet journey through my musical musings (we’re up to F now), Monday will see me confessing to the vast array of devices and computers that we own (it’s not pretty!), Tuesday will be all about World Autism Awareness Day and then later in the week I’m hoping to share some of the amazing experiences we had at the zoo as well.
Also, you’ll note the link below to Bloglovin. If you are interested in following the blog, particularly given the imminent closure of Google Reader, well here is the perfect chance for you to do so. You can also follow me via Feedburner and receive each post in your inbox (see the subscription box to your right). And you know you can also stalk me on Facebook and Twitter – I won’t be weirded out if you do!
So that’s that for now. I feel better for getting you all up to speed and hopefully I will get my life and my mind in order very, very soon!
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