So NOT a Baby Anymore…

Delilah will be 3 next April which is now a mere 4 months away. Which means she is a fully fledged toddler and no longer a baby.

Despite my state of denial, it appears she has not been a baby for quite a while now…

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But I have to admit I’m having trouble letting go of babyhood.

Perhaps it is because she is small for her age and still doesn’t have a lot of hair to play with.

Maybe it’s because she still holds onto her dummy for her night time sleep and hasn’t yet commenced toilet training.

But, deep down, I know the real reason for my state of denial. She is my last child. I know that is why I’m struggling to acknowledge that she is no longer a baby.

Certain events that have occurred recently have forcibly reminded me of the relentless march of time and that my baby girl is growing into an independent little miss.

Whether I’m ready or not.

Last week she moved up from the Waterbabies class at swimming to the Guppies class, for kids aged 2 and half and older. I’m still in the pool with her but she receives more independent and targeted instruction, which she is more than ready to receive.

At her lesson this morning she copied the 3 year old girl in her class and tried her rocket arms and kicking with the board – things she was too scared to try last week in her initial class.

It is clear she is growing up.

Yesterday we attended orientation at a local daycare centre where we’ve been offered a Friday place for next year.

She started out being shy and clinging to my skirt but ended up throwing herself in the activities on offer – I literally had to drag her away in the end!

While I’m relieved that it appears she will fit right in there, I am already mourning the loss of our Fridays together – they were the highlight of my week and I will miss spending one-on-one time with my baby girl.

But it is clear she is growing up.

Christmas will see us moving her even further away from babyhood when she gives Santa her night-time dummy for Christmas and begins toilet training.

The underwear has already been purchased (although I’m still chasing some In the Night Garden undies – ideas anyone?) and she made her first big step today by having her first toileting success. It was a very proud mummy moment.

It is undeniable – it is clear she is growing up.

As much as I yearn to kiss her chubby cheeks and beg for her to stay cute and adorable forever, it’s not possible.

She will progress, develop and grow. She will live to have a life of her own. She will learn to make her own choices and decisions. She will dream her own dreams.

As much as I wish to freeze time and cherish her now, as she is, I am also eager to see how her life unfolds.

Whatever happens, she will always be my baby girl.

And I wouldn’t miss any of it for the world!

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4 Responses

  1. Naaaw, so hard isn’t it. My baby girl turns three in March, and while she has a little brother; well… she’s my baby-girl.
    So wonderful to hear all the things she’s up to, adore that she’s such a good little swimmer too, I love seeing little ones learn to swim and enjoy water (In NZ I know many adults that have NEVER swam, nature of the location I guess where few people have pools and it’s too freeeeezing to swim at the beach LOL).
    Hope you and your family have been well Kirsty x
    Carly@Charlie&Bella recently posted..baby boy. eight months

    • Kirsty says:

      Thanks Carly – it is hard, isn’t it? I’m glad I’m not the only one who has a not-so baby girl!

      Delilah has been learning to swim on and off since she was 4 months old and all our kids have had lessons. It’s the one thing we always knew we would get our kids to learn as we live near the beach and wanted them to be as safe as possible around water. I can understand it being too freezing at the beach in NZ – I holidayed there once in November and couldn’t go near the water in the Bay of Islands. I got a picture of myself laying on the beach in my swimmers and then rugged up again! Thanks so much for coming by and for your lovely comment Carly.

  2. Ness says:

    I’m having the same feelings regarding my Mr4. I can’t believe how fast it’s gone. And definitely no more babies. Sigh.

    Yes, she will always be your little girl. I’m still a Mummy’s girl at (almost)42.(not sure if I should admit that…)
    Ness recently posted..My Christmas Wish List

    • Kirsty says:

      Hahaha, so am I Ness! I saw my Mum and Dad today and it’s lovely to be cared for and looked after, even though I am (supposedly) fully grown!

      I gave Delilah some extra big hugs tonight even though she pained me by continually getting out of bed and coming up with excuses to come out of her room…see? She’s so not a baby anymore…

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