Change is a constant. It’s true, you know. It’s never-ending, relentless, challenging and surprising.
There are times that I like change and thrive on the fast pace of my life and the fact things are certainly never dull.
And there are those other times when I feel like I am on an out-of-control theme park ride and just want it to stop before I hurl up everywhere…
At the moment, things are moving at a frenetic pace but, for the moment, I’m happy to be taken along for the ride. Yes, you’ll be relieved to note that I am not ready to hurl over you all just yet!
Gilbert is preparing for his first transition visit to his new school. He is understandably anxious about it but I think he is also excited – I know I can’t wait to see how he will fare in a mainstream classroom! So far, both schools have been supportive and are doing all they can to assist him so here’s hoping all our efforts bring success.
We are still getting our heads around Matilda’s Aspergers diagnosis, which was formally confirmed today, and has rocked our family to the core. But we know we are heading in the right direction as the small changes that have already been made for her are already yielding dividends. Fingers crossed she will continue to progress and start thriving at school.
Delilah is perhaps the one changing the most right now. She will be 18 months old at the end of this month and she is finally starting to really break out of babyhood. She is beginning to have, what we call, “baby tantrums” where she stamps her feet and squeals, definitely showing her displeasure at whatever is bugging her at that moment. It’s cute now, but I know it won’t be in a few month’s time…
Meanwhile my husband and I are still deliberating how to extend and renovate our house, wondering how long we can delay upgrading his car (which is turning into a death trap) and trying to map out our ideal working arrangements while still keeping up with all our financial commitments. If we ever sort these things out, you’ll all be the first to know!
Admidst all this change and uncertainty, I’m somehow staying on top of the stress and the strain. Yes, my life at times can be challenging but for now, I’m coping. Which is a nice change in itself. We’ll see how long that lasts…
I will leave you with one of my favourite tunes, aptly named “Change” by Lisa Stansfield. The lyrics go something like this:
If I could change the way I live my life today
I wouldn’t change a single thing
‘Cos if I changed my world into another place
I wouldn’t see your smiling face
And that pretty much sums up how I feel right now. My life has certainly had it’s twists and turns (and that wheel will keep inexorably turning) but I wouldn’t change a single thing and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
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